2009 - Year of Good Movies?

Yeah, so, I think I may have mentioned this before. But I was sitting over at Rachael's house today just playing on teh computer and watching some DVD's, preparing for the concert, right? Well, she decided to get on Yahoo! Movies to see what movies were going to be coming out. We looked at the listings, and there are a ton of movies coming out in April, and I'm stoked about them. Nerdily, I am really happy that Dragonball Evolution is coming out April 8th. My cousin and I grewup on Dragonball Z in our childhood, so we're just going to see that for good times sake. And than there is Angels and Demons, Terminator Salvation, and I think one more but I forgot about it. Also, Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince comes out in July and I am TOTALLY happy about that! I cannot wait to see it and the trailers look good for it. Rachael wants to see 17 Again, and I think that looks kind of stupid, but then again, I'm not a fan of comedies. I only like stand up comedians, honestly. lol I know I'm a weirdo when it comes to movies. Then, I discovered that the Twilight movie sequal, New Moon, comes out this year on November 20th, supposedly. And then in August sometime, G.I. Joe comes out. This year is going to be good, I can nearly smell it.

4 days! :)

Blah Blah Blah

Yep, there's nothing going on in my morning at all right now. I am currently listening to the lecture that Mrs. Anthony is giving us. It's kind of boring but that's what happens when you listen to lectures about research papers. She's talking about abnormal psychology stuff too. She's talking about interesting stuff right now though, about child abuse and what not. So, anyway, it's five days until my birthday and I'm completely stoked. I have to work tonight from 4 to 9 and I hope I get to go home early again .It's likely, since it is a Monday night at KFC Taco Bell. It really sucks since I have to work tonight and tomorrow morning, but they are both short shifts. I have never been so exhausted. Coming back from Spring Break on a Monday sucks no matter how good your classes are.

5 days. :)

School starts back up tomorrow...

Okay, so, we return back to school from spring break tomorrow. In a way, it's exciting, but in a way, I'm not thrilled. Mostly because the Monday that we return is going to be hectic since I didn't do any homework over the break. I have one computer assignment I'm going to have to finish when I get to school tomorrow morning after dropping my mom off at work. And I think I have two math assignments that are due Monday as well. It's going to be like, holy Jeebus. So, yeah, tomorrow is gonna suck. There is another reason for it too. I have to work, AGAIN. I worked tonight and it wasn't great. It was a bad day especially for the back liners. And I had to take the blunt force of all of the customer irritation with us. Sure, it's my job, but damn. And I have to work a five hour shift tomorrow, and then I have to get up Tuesday morning around 9:30 and be back into work at 11 for a four hour shift. Luckily, I have off on Wednesday, and I just have to go back to school for the morning, and I'm going to be heading over to Rachael's for a couple of hours to spend some time with her. Tonight wasn't great for her, since her dog ended up throwing up in the backseat of her car, and she was almost late for work. So, I kind of feel bad for her. Hopefully her day gets better, and I sent her a good text message, praying that she gets happier before she goes to sleep tonight. She's a great friend and its very valued.

Anyway, nothing much else to talk about.

Chow.

6 days. :)

Two New Albums This Year

Yep, I heard today that there will be two brand new albums coming out from two of my favorite bands out there: Three Days Grace and Atreyu. I am super excited for these to come out. I have been wondering why they had been off tour for so long. I didn't realize how long it has been. Atreyu hasn't been on tour since Taste of Chaos and that ended last May. Three Days Grace has been off the road for more than a year themselves too, and Three Days Grace is rumored to have their album out this year and I am thrilled about it. Atreyu is going to be going into the studio sometime next month and I'm excited about that too. Music has been dominating 2009 right now and I'm so excited. I mean, Papa Roach just came out with their album on March 24, and then Burn Halo will be coming out with their first album on March 31, and now Three Days Grace and Atreyu?! Holy God, I'm going to have a musical heart attack and I'm excited about it! So, honestly, I really don't have much else to talk about other than that. Other than I'm super excited about all of these bands coming out with new material, there's really nothing going on other than I have been sick all day and I had to call into work. I woke up at 4 in the morning throwing up, and my parents think I had minor food poisoning. Hopefully I'll feel good enough to go into work tomorrow, because either way, I have to go.

That's it, I guess. Adios.

7 days. :)

Days of War

Yeah, so today and last night I have realized that this is one crappy situation we are all living in. Watching the news, I realized how bad this is, how everyone is struggling and there is not a whole lot of happiness going around right now. Republicans and Democrats have been battling it over because of the Stimulus Bill and because the Republicans are not in power anymore, they are throwing a major fit and throwing accusations toward the Democrats. It's just not a great thing to see going on, especially in the midst of an economic crisis. So yes, these are days of war, but it is just sad to realize that the war is not only over in the Middle East, but it is also in the heart of our country. We are fighting amongst ourselves because of religion and politics and that shouldn't be the case. We're supposed to be a unified body, one of the strongest countries in the world and now we are starting to be overtaken by China and India. It's just sad to also watch people kid themselves by saying that we still are. It's not the case anymore, sadly.

That's just my small rant. I had nothing else to talk about.

8 days. :)

So...Papa Roach's new album...

Is made of pure awesomeness. I think Metamorphosis totally outdid the Paramour Sessions, and can possibly even rival the Getting Away With Murder CD. Well, not totally. I still think that GAWM is a better album, but Metamorphosis still kicks major ass when it comes to Papa Roach! I am stoked to see them live, and it is definitely coming sooner than I expected.

Well, you thought that this blog would be mostly about Papa Roach, huh? Nah. I don't have anything better to talk about so I'll just go through my day's events. I just got up this morning at 8:30, messed around on the computer some until my Dad got up and started watching the news and then started to play Super Mario Sunshine on the Gamecube. We are totally bored individuals when we get up in the morning. I just ate noodles for lunch and what not and then played on the computer and cleaned my room until I had to go to work at 4.

While at work, a girl that I don't really like got her job back after being fired for letting drugs interrupt her work at KFC. A lot of people wanted her to stay gone, but after she has gotten off of the drugs, she seems a little better, but we'll see. I highly doubt it but it's a possibility that she hasn't remained a complete airhead. Oh, and I also found out that when I go into work tomorrow, I have to bet here for when the auditor comes in! So...yeah, I'm completely SCREWED.

10 days. :)

The OCD is back!

OCD = Obsessive Cullen Disorder.

There's your daily definition. lol Yep, today I got the Twilight DVD, FINALLY. The three disc special edition that was on sale at Target for 18 bucks. Yepppp! So, I sat down at 9:00 tonight to watch Twilight with my Dad, because I wanted to prove to him that Twilight is nothing like Buffy and Angel, since he was completely convinced of it. Well, by the end of it, my Twilight obsession has resurfaced and I got my Dad interested in the series. So, a big plus for me. Now, I also have something to talk about at work with the rest of the Twilighters that are working there. We may end up driving people insane, but that's cool, I think. lol It's been that way for a couple of weeks since my boss, Amy, finally started to read the books and buy the shirts and stuff. She is really into it and I'm glad I have another Twilight friend. =D

So, I'm excited for New Moon. It comes out in November and the new director is Chris Weitz. He directed the Golden Compass and I really liked the movie so hopefully he delivers. The imagery and stuff in TGC was amazing and I hope that projects into New Moon with the creation of Volterra, Italy and the Volturi palace. I'm excited for this, you have no idea. Edward Cullen has got to be the downfall of an idealistic man, I swear to God.

11 days. :)

I Guess I'll Talk About Ninja Cats?

Viola. Ninja cat.

I don't know. I didn't know what to write about so I just surfed through photobucket and found this picture. It's quite hilarious, I think. Because of this picture though, it made me think of my own cat, Binks. She's acting like a dog for some reason, but she loves my dog Libby. She'll roll around on top of her feet, allow Libby to lick her head and so on and so forth. I mean, this cat is just nuts and my family knows it. I love Binks though, she is definitely my cat and I love her to pieces. She doesn't really like anyone else besides me, and will only sleep in my room if she can get the chance. Most nights she keeps me awake, like last night. She woke me up about four times with her mutant chirping meow. It's weird, but she's adorable. She's almost a year old now, in May. Before my mom went to bed, I saw Binks and Bella running down the hall chasing one another, their fur standing up on their backs and their tails puffed out.

So cute.

12 days. :)

Family Can Be a Drag

Yep, that is the whole point of this post: family. My mom's side of the family came over this weekend, just her sister (my aunt), my uncle, and my four year old cousin. The reason why this was such a big ordeal was because of the fact that my grandmother is a complete nutcase and now my grandfather is being dragged into the craziness. So, my little cousin pretty much worships the ground I walk upon (not being modest, I hate the hell out of it), and she wouldn't leave me alone the entire time. She kept on being stupid and doing stupid stuff and annoying me, but that's what four year olds do. But the fact of the matter is, that she is not potty trained, she is an attention seeker and she doesn't get her ass beat enough to make her mind anyone. That was the worst part about it. Then, we had to discuss the fact of the matter about my grandmother, and then my family is forcing me to be 'nice' to her, even though I hate her. I don't even acknowledge her as my grandmother anymore. It's just gotten that bad, and I don't care anymore.

Then, my friend Rachael came over and spent the night, working on our ideas for the Avenged Sevenfold concert and getting things lined up. It turns out, that we might now be standing in line for about four and a half hours, because my aunt and my cousin are gonna come out to Topeka and keep my mom company while Rachael and I are standing in line at the Expocenter. So that's some good news. Then, I found out she won't be back in time to go out with me on Tuesday to go get Papa Roach's CD and the Twilight DVD, because she has to go up to Minnesota to grab some stuff out of the storage garages up there and then bring it back down. She has to leave tomorrow at two in the morning and it is going to suck so bad for her. So, I won't really have much to do until Tuesday anyway, but that's not the point. She probably won't be able to text me all that much while she is on the road. :( Oh well, I'll live.

13 Days!

Another Typical Avenged Sevenfold Blog Post?

After last night at work, I really did turn to music once again. It's been a stressful week but its going to end up being a good paycheck. But I don't know if having a good paycheck, however, is better than keeping your sanity. That place is hell on Earth so when I get home, I just turned on the music to full volume and let it take hold again. That is the purpose of this blog post, to show you a live performance of the band that I will be seeing in fifteen days. Avenged Sevenfold's "Unholy Confessions" performance from Live at the Long Beach Center is what this video is. They are really an inspirational band and I love them to death. I can't wait to see them and I'm just thrilled to death. I saw some interviews and such from Papa Roach as well that has gotten me fired up for them since their album comes out this coming Tuesday. It's amazing.

I think about music most of the day, analyze and pick it apart to find out the meaning behind everything and what the lyrics mean and find out the riffs and the melodies and how the hell these guys are so talented. But the one thing I know for sure, is these guys are my inspiration to go to college and get into the music industry and work with all of these musicians. I want to learn how they do it and the technicalities of it. I'm so inspired and I'm so thankful that I get to see these guys live. They are amazing, no doubt.

15 DAYS!!!!!

Two Days Off From Work

I needed a break from work, but it doesn't seem like it is going to be all that great. I just have Friday and Saturday off, and then I won't have another break until the following Tuesday, when I get paid and when Papa Roach's 'Metamorphosis' album comes out, and when I will be getting my new cell phone plan. I'm excited about Tuesday more than anything. Saturday though, Rachael and I are going to be hanging out over at my house while my mom's family is over. It'll keep me from going insane with nothing to do but hang out on the computer. It's better than nothing, right? I'm completely broke until Tuesday but that's okay. 30 dollars will last me until then. 30 dollars will cover the Twilight DVD on Saturday as well, so I'm pretty excited about that. Then, after Tuesday, my next day off won't be until that Friday, then I work the weekend after that. And then finally, that last week, I will have shortened hours because of the Friday, Saturday, and Sunday I have off. That's because it is April 3, 4, and 5th - my birthday weekend! I will be in Topeka, Kansas so this next week and the week after is going to be nuts. Also, Burn Halo's CD is coming out so I have to purchase that on the 31st. I'm pretty stoked about the events coming up except for my stupid work schedule. I hate working at KFC/Taco Bell. It's hell there compared to most places. Hell, it even made me cry today when I got home. I don't know, I'm just beat right now and I'm looking forward to these next couple of days. At least I get to work with Rachael on Sunday morning, right?

By the way, tomorrow will be officially 15 days until my 18th birthday and the Avenged Sevenfold concert in Topeka. (:

Early Morning Madness

There has already been some drama going on today before I even arrived at school, or even at work. I'm supposed to go to that concert in Topeka on my birthday, and my friend and I want to get there quite a few hours early. Now, my mom is being unappreciative and hardly compromising by saying we need to leave a lot later than what Rachael and I were planning. It's a four and a half hour drive to get to the Kansas Expocentre, but it's going to be a nice, April Saturday and I'm sure a lot of people are going to be getting there early. I don't understand how that is not so easy to grasp with my mother. Sure, we can't go by ourselves but my parents are the ones who are paranoid. Honestly, at this point, I really wish my Dad would come just so he could keep my mom company and make sure that she has something to do so Rachael and I can get there early and stand in our line for four and a half hours like we want. I know, that's an insane amount of time, but its damn well worth it. I really wish that was the case but it turns out its not going to be that simple. I may have to make my way through the circuit and see if my Dad is willing to come with us instead of sitting in the house all by himself getting depressed for two days. I really want him to come anyway. I don't really feel like driving those four and a half hours but I have to do what I have to do, since my mom can't drive because of her seizures. This sucks so bad and I feel miserable about it. It ruined my day and now I have to see if I can fix it. If this dosen't get fixed and Rachael and I can't leave when we want to, considering it's my 18th birthday and it should be about me that day. Sure, I have to consider my mom but I'm bringing my laptop to play on and there's freakin' WiFi at the hotel that we are staying at. I'm considering her, but I really want this to be a good day. She does not need to ruin it for me...again. She thinks she knows everything about this but she's never been to a rock concert. Once, she has, but that was because she had to. She doesn't know what is really like. The concert that she went to was in the same place it was now, but it's not going to be like it was with My Chemical Romance. These four bands that are playing on the fourth have much larger fanbases than MCR does. She does not get the concept of that and she doesn't understand it. So, it turns out I may have to turn to my Dad for help on this one. Hopefully he understands what I'm trying to say. Maybe he will, maybe he won't. I'll just have to see. I just don't want this to ruin my day like it already kind of has.

Branson Landing

Yeah, Rachael and I decided to got to the Landing today. And I bought 90 dollars worth of clothes. Two pairs of shorts and a tank top. Yeah. Pacsun and Aeropostale would do that to you. My parents made me feel guilty but I needed the shorts. The only reason why I even got the tank top was to send me over 50 bucks. If I got over 50 at Pacsun, I would be able to get 25 dollars off of my next 50 dollar purchase at Pacsun so I did it. I was kinda excited about it but yeah, they are really short shorts lol. So, yeah, I bought those today. She got a bunch of shit too from the Landing and it cost her about the same price for the stuff. All day though, we were out and doing stuff. After we got back from Branson we went back to her house and played around with her camera and jumped on her trampoline, so that was fun. I was so wore out and right now I am so nasty from all of the sweat and dirt. So, I'm going to go ahead and take a shower. I just needed to get in my post for the day. (:

A Significant Event

The significant event that I will pick for this topic is the day that my mom came home from work with a severe migraine. It turned out, that migraine was a tumor that was beginning to pressure up against the side of her skull and make her brain swell. It was a significant event for me because of the fact that I came face to face with the realization that my dad could be a widow, and I could lose the person that gave birth to me. Sadly, I don't have a very good relationship with her, but I still love her as my mother. That November day was very shocking, and for the next half of a week, I wondered whether or not I was going to go home for good with my mom by my side. It was a hard realization to know that my Dad could have been left alone in the world, with only me and his side of the family to rely on. We have very bad problems regarding my mom's side of the family, which I do not care to relive in my own head or elaborate further on. It is too shocking and maddening to really say much about it without having a hot head for the rest of the day. It changed my outlook on life a lot, because that made me think not taking life for granted anymore. Cliche, but every day is not guarenteed. It helped me motivate myself to take charge of my life and really get a hold on what I want to do for the rest of my life and just do it and not wait any longer on it. Someday, I won't have time anymore. Someday, I will have a family. She helped me realize that, if it is one good thing my mom has ever taught me, it was the fact to cherish life because you may not know when you might die.

Another Concert Choice: Weighing My Options

There is another dilemma I must face. No, no boy troubles this time! It is actually concerning my decision on whether or not I should go to a certain concert tour: The Mayhem Festival. It's not until late July but I am really thinking about going. However, there is a problem with it. There are only going to be a few bands that I enjoy going, and the rest are kind of boring, or just local, or even a band that I just despise. That includes Marilyn Manson, the big headliner of the Festival. I really want to go there to see All That Remains mostly. It's a metal festival, which means there are going to be a lot of hardcore fans there, which there is only a few hardcore bands that I listen to. I really just want to see All That Remains, and maybe some Hatebreed live. I am completely in love with ATR and I just really want to see them. However, I don't know anybody else that I like that is going on tour, I just may have to see. I have 150 dollars to spend on a concert this summer and Mayhem Festival may be my option, depending on the other tours. Another problem I have come across is who would go with me. I can't go to a metal concert by myself, I'd get murdered. I just have to find someone that is into metal, but I don't know who. It's just a big dilemma and I still have yet to figure it out.

Drama Sucks!

I really didn't have a whole lot to write yesterday, so I decided to skip it for a reason. Well, yesterday night, I had received a phone call about something that happened on Wednesday. A guy I know from Rogersville had pulled some stuff at work the other day on a few girls, including myself, and tried to make up for it. He is getting on my nerves and I'm having trouble figuring out what is going on and how I am going to be dealing with those types of things from now on. I've been having a lot of dilemmas based off of my personality, my experiences, and how I interact with people. Everyone has their flaws, but then again, sometimes they aren't flaws whenever there is a reason behind him. A lot of people don't know what has happened in the lives of these people and they make assumptions and they accuse them of things that they have no control over. I have that kind of problem but I know it is hardly plausible, but its something that I need to work on and right now, it's in the process. My problem is that I am very judgmental over guys, and I get irritated at people who flaunt drugs and alcohol in public and make an ass out of themselves. It's very irritating while a lot of people just laugh at them. What irritates me at that fact is that these people just want to stand out in the open and make an idiot out of themselves while high on pot or acid or whatever they are taking, or drunk in public, and they have no worth in life. They make no progress or help for society other than just being stupid idiots and just making people laugh at them. It's sad really, that's why I don't laugh. I get irritated and I somewhat pity them and I'm also angry. It's a weird mix of emotions that I have yet to figure out. Sure, I may be intolerable to a lot of things, but there are reasons behind it. Those things, those reasons, are not available for anyone to know because that is part of a personal issue that I still have yet to get over. It's alright though. I think it'll be fixed sometime or another. I think that five years ago, when I had that issue happen to me and it was forever ingrained in my memory, it won't go away until I'm quite a ways away from a public school memory.

That's just how it happens, unfortunately. Drama just sucks.

The Importance of Concerts

Yeah, it's happening again. I suddenly had a random Avenged Sevenfold compulsion this morning when I woke up, preceeded by 3:30 in the morning nausia and a headache. Yippee, right? Well, all morning while I was sitting waiting for class to start, and after dropping off my mom from work, I sat on my laptop and just watched music videos on YouTube. Yeah, I know, it's an early morning for the computer but I'm used to it. I'm practically addicted to my computer because I love to type, write, and go on YouTube and Myspace. But that is not the point of this blog, what so ever.

Listen to me now. It is 24 days until I am 18, and 24 days until I get to see my boys again. I'm so excited to see Avenged Sevenfold and Papa Roach again, nobody has a freakin' idea. I found out a lot of things this weekend that hasn't been sitting well with me, and fights constantly with my parents and friends and having to deal with a bunch of people that I don't want to, and coming to a horrible realization about things. I need a release, and I need to scream my heart out to something I care about.

That is where this blog comes to its importance and main idea. Concerts, to me, are my stress reliever. This will be my last concert until probably June or July, maybe even August. If this is what I get until then, then I am content with that. It's amazing what a band can do when you see them live, in person, and see and hear the power of their music, and see their ability in person. At a concert, I am free to be as loud and obnoxious as I want and the best I would get is a dirty look. I want to be able to be as free as I want to be, to scream my heart out, sing as loud as I can without getting in trouble and dance around and head bang without getting an odd look, just a few people doing it with me. I want to be able to hear the chants of the crowd, wanting their favorite band to arrive out onto that stage. It's a strange, yet fulfiling and desirable feeling that I desperately want to feel again, even though I had seen them on February 17th, not even a month ago.

Because of everything that has gone on though, I think it is once again very well needed. I miss Avenged Sevenfold, and I want to see them again, and pump my fist hard in the air and scream as loud as I can. I want to feel the thrill of standing in line for several hours, and be able to laugh and have fun.

I just miss it, but it's coming in twenty-four days.

It's coming. :)

Shopping

It felt great to go out and shop today. It ended up being my friend Rachael and I just going out to Springfield and blowing most of our paychecks on clothes and such. We spent a lot of time looking at cell phones too. Speaking of cell phones, I'm going to end up getting a new one since the one that I have is pretty much a piece of crap. And Rachael has a new one. It is the Hint, and it is amazing. The screen is so cool and she's got a bunch of Papa Roach and Avenged Sevenfold stuff on it for upcoming concert in now 25 days! =D

But, anyway, back to the shopping. I spent I think about 90 dollars today on clothes, and they were all beautiful and cute. It'll just have to go through the public eye, and see how it looks on me. Most of it is just dressy stuff and I'm really looking forward to wearing them. It just needs to get warmer again so I can. Two pairs of flip flops to add to all of the clothes, and a belt. I am very excited though, so it's all good. Just decided to post a little tidbit on my day.

25 days until my 18th birthday/A7X show!

Love

Love is a word that crosses my mind a lot these days. But recently, I have been thinking about it hard. With everything that has been going on, I started to care less about it. But starting a few days ago, it started to come back to me again. I know I have a lot of maintenence and I have a lot of requirements, you could say, but that doesn't stop me from hoping. I know I really shouldn't be as extreme, but I don't want to get stuck in a rut. I thought about it over the past few days, and I realized I just need to go balls out on this. I'm a very shy person and its hard for me to meet people and talk to people face to face. Usually, I have friends help me out, but its really selfish of me to do that. It's just really hard for me to do that.

It's been a while since I've been on a date. I'm really looking forward to having my "knight in shining armor" one day. I can't wait for it to come. I can't wait to be someone's love, and have it in return. I miss that, and on most days, I feel like there is nobody to share that with me. Not even family. I guess that is just teenage angst. I guess what really brought the thoughts on was a song. Even though its about heartache and breakups, it still got me thinking about relationships and how it seems worth it to go through with one, even if it ends badly. I really need to get the ball rolling on it and compress what I feel about how people should act around me. I don't need to be acting so picky and give them a chance, but I do have physical, emotional, and personal standards for guys. It's just depending. If they are not pleasing to the eye, I wont' pursue them, it's just how it is for anybody. Sometimes, they could be baby-face cute, but sometimes it just turns out to be friendships. Because my dad is not a masculine man, and I think because of that, I have the need to be with a man that has more of a masculine feature to him. I don't know how that chemistry works but I think that's how it goes. I don't know. I just hope one day I make the right decision on someone and stick with them, no matter what.

I'm really looking forward to being able to cuddle with a boy, kiss him, hold hands with him, and do everything that a couple does and make it feel natural. I just hope its soon, because honestly, I don't want to feel lonely anymore.

"Watchmen" Review

All I can say about that movie is:

Oh. My. God.

Next to Batman the Dark Knight, Watchmen had to be the best superhero movie ever made. People had said that Watchmen was a near impossible movie to make and have it actually become good. Well, cinema had finally proven that belief wrong. That movie was intense, sexy, and kind of gorey, but it was all around amazing. It's not a movie for kids, not at all. It's more of an adult super hero movie. But, overall, the plot was understandable and the characters seemed so realistic. More or less though, the movie was very political. In the end, you expect one thing to happen, but it's not until the last minute of the movie that you understand what's really going to happen and what the true moral of it is.

The plot is in an alternate universe, but it is an amazing concept. Richard Nixon is still president and Watergate never really happened or it was made to believe that it was not his fault and he had escaped that. It was a truly amazing plot line along with the characterization. The characters included The Comedian, Dr. Manhattan, Nite Owl, Adrian Veidt, Silk Spectre, and Rorchach. In the end, Rorchach ended up being my favorite character. It sucks at how he ends up in the movie though. I won't spoil it though. :)

Video Blog!

Yep, I'm just going out on a wing on this one. I'm totally blank, so I'm going to add a video that I like and talk about it. And yes, it's music related. (:



This is the wonderful video that I have chosen for this blog. The reason being, is because not only is this an Avenged Sevenfold interview, but it was just the questions that were asked during this. I liked the fact that they get inspired by the most odd of stuff. It's really cool to know how people come up with stuff like that, especially musicians. To find out what they were inspired by and what for, just watch the video. I hysterically laughed at it. (: Proud to be an A7X sweetheart! (lol). Yeah, so this is what the blog is about. I admire these guys for being so creative and come up with these concepts out of weird stuff that nobody would ever think or imagine coming from them. It's kind of like me, but sometimes its not that easy. It'll only come once on a blue moon for me when it comes to something like this. A7X are amazing men, and they are absolutely amazing at what they do and how they do it and how experienced they are at their craft. People may call them sell outs and what not, but they can't admit the genius that they have behind all of these songs.

My birthday present

My birthday is not until April fourth, but the present I am going to get for it will definitely be worth it. My birthday is on a Saturday, and it just so happened that there was a concert in Topeka, Kansas on that day that had both of my favorite bands playing: Avenged Sevenfold and Papa Roach. So, my mom bought tickets and we're driving the six and a half hours to Topeka to be at the Expocenter that night. So, I will be turning eighteen with my two favorite bands. I'm probably going to end up crying that night. My special birthday is going to be spent at a concert, the one place I know where I can unwind and be myself.

My friend Racheal is going with me, and she's stoked too. I tried to convince my mom to let my cousin go but she wouldn't let him since he's all of the way in St. Louis. But, we're going to be getting at the Expocenter around 2 or 3 that evening and the doors open around 5:30. So, I will be in line when I officially turn 18 (I was born at 5:16 that night in 1991). So, I'm completely excited for what is going to be happening that day, and I want to be able to see Avenged for the third time, and Papa Roach for my second. It's amazing to know that I am going to be seeing them on my eighteenth birthday, when I'm legal!!!!!!!!

So, I had to tell someone, and a blog is another way for me to do so. (:

Feeling a bit better about myself

Well, I had to go to the doctor today to get a prescription refill. But, in order to do that, I had to get a physical and see my doctor and doctor's assistant for all the basic check up things. It was nice to hear that I'm pretty much healthy, I just need to do a little more exercise. Because I'm not in softball anymore, it's really hard to do that and I have to work and go to school constantly so I really don't have time for it, either that or I am just absolutely exhausted. So, I spoke to my doctor and got all of the check ups, and he asked me about my acne. I told him I was kind of uncomfortable with it and he offered me a prescription for some acne stuff, and I told him no since we were kind of short on money and what not. Later on, I found out my mom was okay with it but I didn't linger on the thought. He asked me later on if I had tried benzoyl peroxide and I told him I was allergic to it. So, it wouldn't have worked out all that great anyway.

But, the best part about this entire doctor's appointment was the fact I got to talk to him about my weight. For a while I have been worried that I was overweight for a 5'8", 18 year old girl. I got to talking to him about it and after a long conversation and speech about how 'he is resilient to telling me because of how girls my age want to have this certain number' and blah blah blah. I love food too much to be anorexic, was my first thought. But, he ended up finding out for me what my average weight SHOULD be.

And guess what I found out?

I'm in the range!

Someone my height and age should be from 124 pounds to 164, and when I weighed in, I was 157 pounds. So, now, my new goal for weight loss is to get to 150. It seems like a good number to me. So, to lose seven pounds is the new goal for me. I'll be so happy if I get to do it, but I'm starting to drink more water and eat more vegetables and stuff like that, and cut down on my soda intake. I'm getting there, it just takes some work.

Straightedge

No, this has nothing to do with math. I decided to dedicate a little blog post to my lifestyle, the one that I think that I will be dedicated to until I die. It's quite an unknown group of people and a lifestyle, but it's one that has good morals and a good reason. Before I give you the definition of what straightedge is, here is a small history:

Straightedge was coined by a band called Minor Threat in the 80's. They were a small punk band that was not really widely known. They coined it by making a song called 'Straightedge'. Here are some of the lyrics:

"I'm a person just like you. But I've got better things to do. Than sit around and f*** my head. Hang out with the living dead. Snort white s*** up my nose. Pass out at the shows. I don't even think about speed. That's something I just don't need. I've got the straight edge."

Got an idea of what it might mean?

If you don't, well, then I'm going to tell you.

Straightedge is the lifestyle of the abstinence of alcohol, cigarettes, drugs, and promiscuous sex. Anything that is harmful to the body is definitely a no. Sure, there are other things that harm the body, but it is pretty much general. Some straightedgers are very strict on the lifestyle and will not have caffiene, and some of them are even vegan. I discovered this a while back, but even before I knew what straightedge was, I was still abstinent from all of these things. I didn't want to harm my body and I knew what it could do to people and I didn't want that to happen to me.

The X's on the backs of the hands were also brought about in the 80's whenever minors would go to concerts, the security would put big black X's on the back of their hands to symbolize that they were not allowed to have alcohol. Eventually, that became the straightedge symbol.

But, then again, straightedge also has a bad rep. The reason for that is because there are people who are known as Negative Straightedgers, who are basically a violent gang. They do not do the drugs, alcohol and what not, but they are violent toward people they see doing alcohol and drugs on the streets. In some cities, when a police officer sees the X symbol or the word Straightedge tattooed or worn on the body, they would put as a gang member because of it, even if they weren't one. They could be what is called a Positive Edger, and they would be coined as a gang member. It's not fair, but it's the truth.

But I am proud to call myself straightedge, because I just think that drugs, alcohol, and random acts of sexual activity are disgusting. I want to live a healthy life and that's how I plan to be my entire life. There is no reason behind getting drunk and getting strung out for the sake of having fun.

Songs That Should Never Go Unheard

I got to thinking today about how people do not even know some of the bands that I have listened to, or heard of them but never heard a song. It's blasphemy! So, since I'm sure that there will be a few people reading this, whomever how random that person may be, I think its good to list a few good song titles and give my own reasons why. These are some of my favorite songs and they hold a personal identification to myself. Hell, some of them might even be on the playlist I have going on here. Well, despite that, here are some songs and the reasoning I have behind them:

"Scars" by Papa Roach
There are so much crap that I went through in my middle school years, and even in some points during my high school career that I had depended on this song to help me cope through what I was facing. After dealing with psychotic friends and a cancer-ridden mother and having to face the reality of what was ahead of me, this song was definitely inspired me to keep going, that I tried helping and doing what I could, but I can't be perfect. I'd do anything for my friends, but if they can't fix themselves and refuse to try, I can't do anything else. But it doesn't stop me from feeling bad about the things that I could have attempted to fix.

"To End the Rapture" by Avenged Sevenfold
Holy God. This song may only be a 1:26 song, but the only reason why this song should be heard is for the fact that is an ungodly awesome guitar solo, the drums are amazing, and the vocalist (one of the hottest men that could have ever walked this good green Earth) has an angelic voice that gives me chills every time this song plays.

"Trashed and Scattered" by Avenged Sevenfold
This never became a single, but it should have been. The chorus is unbelievable. Then again, this band never fails to amaze me in any song that they do and any record that they manage to put out. They have been around for ten years, and songs like these make them stand the test of time. The reason I love this song is because of the melody, as well as the lyrics. Sure, it may have the F word in it in a few places but there is a good underlying message. It's about standing up for who you are and not giving a crap about what others think. Although, I do think it has some drinking references in it, about drunkenness, but I think the standing up for yourself thing is a little bit more stronger in the message. The chorus:

"I won't be the victim, but the first to cast a stone
Sedated nights to the bar room fights as metropolis takes its toll
And don't you try to stop me, it's a place you'll never know
Don't try to judge or take shots at me, I'll never let you seize control."

"Seize the Day" by Avenged Sevenfold
Okay, another Avenged Sevenfold song, I know, but I am completely obsessed with them. But, this song in particular, was written by the front man for his girlfriend (now wife). It's a song about how much he loves her, and how the thought of leaving her is dreadful to him. It's a song that I care so much about, and that I will defend with my whole heart, because I want this to be a song for me and a significant other one day. I want to have that happiness, and know that I will have someone that I can rely on that will be there for me in a deeper meaning than just a good friend. But, I am a very picky woman, and a very rare occurence, because I am a non-drinker, non-smoker, non-druggie, and non-partier. I'm very simple, and I find fun in very odd ways, no matter how random and retarded it may seem. This song just relays the feelings I want to have toward someone one day. I want it to be like almost the background music for a good relationship I want to someday have.

"Second Chance" by Shinedown
When I first heard this song, thanks to my little cousin, I was hooked onto it. I couldn't believe what I was hearing. It made me cry several times before it became engraved into my memory and I could sing along with it. It had a special meaning to not only my cousin Danielle, but in a way I could relate to it as well. Because sometimes, I feel like I'm a failure to my family but I'm willing to pick up those pieces and show them and the world that I am something better, that I can achieve my dreams and do what I want to do without any regrets. Sometimes though, I wish they would understand that this is my life, and I really need to be let go, despite if I am their only child or not. I know it may be hard for them but I feel like I need to be let off the leash and do what I need to do to get where I want to be in life. That's what the song is about, and hopefully anyone who listens to it can find some kind of relation to how it feels.

Right now, that's all I have. Maybe later down the road when I actually have a song that gets close to me, I will recommend a few more. But those are the few that I really do have a deep meaning to at the moment. So, hopefully there can be a message relayed here, and a bit of a 'lesson' into my life and how I think about things. Adios. :)

Topic Starters - First Post!

Well, since I can't find my little writing territory things and it would be kinda hard to type them up here anyway, I'm just going to list a few that could probably reference me later on. I'm going to be doing it by word association. Hopefully this will suffice.

Music
Avenged Sevenfold
Dueling Guitars
Riffs
Lyrics
Writing
Pencils
School
History
Greece
Sparta
Battle of Thermopylae
300
comic books
Watchmen
Marvel
Stan Lee
Fantastic 4
Johnny Storm
Fire
Wood stoves
Winter
Snow
Ice
Freezer
Pizza Rolls
Junk Food
Brownies
Chocolate
Hersheys
Pennsylvania
West Chester
Bam Margera
Jackass
Television...

I could go on forever but there are a few topic starters. That's how I usually come up with something to write with anytime I'm doing any free writing activity if I'm that stuck on something anyway.